Lately, I’ve had some MAJOR shifts and changes. (I’m talking seismic richter scale type shifts)
A couple of weeks ago I was feeling really *angry* – for no apparent reason, so I asked my husband Douglas (aka incredibly gifted healer) to give me an energy healing.
I jumped on the massage table, eager to have the healing, TOTALLY UNAWARE of what was about to happen.
Purely tracking the energy, Doug asked me a series of questions, and before I knew it, I was remembering an experience from my past that was UNEXPECTED in ways I couldn’t even imagine.
(Cue that song in the background by Jamie lawson…”Well, I wasn’t expecting that…”)
What the healing revealed was a traumatic experience from my past that I had completely locked away, and altered my “memory” of what happened to keep me “safe”. As a result we ended up needing a full alignment session (3 x healings done over 3 consecutive days)
They say, things will be presented to you when you are ready.
It’s kinda ironic, because I am ALWAYS telling my clients…
“You are never given anything you are not capable of dealing with. It’s because you are ready to clear this and move up to the next level of awareness that it’s in your reality.”
Thank goodness for all my years of self exploration and study and my 100% belief in this being true statement.
I know that I am finally ready to acknowledge and face it.
For me personally, the alignment session Doug gave me…was life saving – literally.
And whilst I’m still trying to get my head around what happened, the biggest realisation I’m working through now, is how much of my life has been lived as a victim.
There. I said it. Victim.
Now victim is not a word anyone I know would ever describe me as – but that’s exactly what I was.
Some people play the victim externally.
Others like me, play it internally.
Now that the core has been released, there is no need to have that energy in my life anymore. In my daily journalling I’ve been acknowledging themany habits I’ve acquired, that were all born from that victim energy.
These are the habits that have held me back and kept me feeling frustrated and angry.
Habits and thoughts like:
– Self sabotage
– Not being “enough”
Where I find myself now, is re-discovering a new me. A more complete me. A more whole me.
I’m excited about what lies ahead.
I’m not through the tunnel just yet, but I can certainly see the light at the other end.
Why did I share this with you?
Because I want you to know, we all have moments in our lives that define us and shape us and make us who we are.
We can look at those moments and pretend we have no control over who we are and what our future will look like,
We can have gratitude for those moments and the experience we had. We can use it to exercise compassion and then CHOOSE if the path ahead of us is in fact the path that we want to follow. Does it allow us to show up as the person we want to be?
I decided to have compassion for my victim energy, to forgive it for all it has done, and to take those parts of me that will serve me in the future leaving behind everything that does not.
Life is about choices.
It’s about living in the here and now.
There is no greater power that has been bestowed upon us than the power to choose.
So I choose freedom in my life.
I choose abundance, prosperity and wealth.
I choose laughter and love and connection.
And I feel like a brand new woman because of it.
So I ask you, WHAT are you choosing today and WHO are you choosing to show up as?
Your choices matter.
Because YOU matter.
Sending you lots of gratitude and love